If not now… when?

Because we were born to realize our dreams…

Empowering talented and successful people to get out of their own way… July 14, 2007

No… I have not taken a three month world cruise that prevented me from writing my blog, nor have I eschewed the online world for the glaciated, unconnected wilderness of Denali National Park… I am neck deep in that which scares me (and excites me- perhaps I should flip those) the most…..

Things with Synchronis.tv are moving marvelously ahead.. I couldn’t be happier or busier or more challenged, intellectually, emotionally or spiritually… but what about my blog which prior to this had been partly focused on my video blog, “Question of the Week”?

The whole point of “Question of the Week” is to help people explore some of the perhaps subconscious thoughts that keep us from being all that we dream of being. “Question of the Week” is on hiatus as I push forward with my dream…but why not continue this blog by telling everyone about some of the amazing people I have met along this journey who share my mission in some way or another?

I have met some incredible people during this past year, but one that stands out is Sharon Melnick… here’s her picture..
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I was attracted to Sharon before I knew what she did because she exuded such confidence and kindness and positive energy. It turns out that not only is she amazingly generous with her time and assistance but…. she is a psychologist affiliated with Harvard University, whose life’s work is to help talented and successful people get out of their own way!

I have to add a few !!!! here.. cuz !!!!! anyone who can effectively help other people to become the person that they always knew they could be …. that is simply an invaluable resource… imagine if you could achieve the things you dream of doing… the things you know you were put on this earth to do…the things which, if you were really honest with yourself, are only denied to you because of your own self-imposed limitations.

I think the implications of that are enormous.. not just on an individual level, but a universal one.

So first…If you head to Sharon’s site, the first place you have to go is to the “Are You Getting in Your Own Way” quiz… lets see.. yes, yes, yes, yes… I checked off far too many options.. umm, yeah.. I am my own harshest critic..umm, yeah there is someone I’m working with who makes me feel disempowered, which brings up feelings of incompetence and failure … do I need to go on?????

Ok… so the quiz is fun and a little um.. disturbing cuz I checked off far too many things.. But then… pop, in your email box comes not only an assesment of your answers, but a 10 chapter pdf with discussions about what causes us to behave in all these ways that don’t serve us… and some really fantastic suggestions about what we can do to change that behaviour. It’s all totally free… its all totally inspired, and made me feel a few breaths calmer, more hopeful.

As you may know if you read this blog I am a full fledged believer that the deeper and more courageously you strive to know yourself, the greater the ultimate personal awards. This is what Sharon’s work is all about…

I think Sharon is fantastic, and I profoundly admire what she does with her life… I know she is currently building an invite list for her next free workshop so if this sounds like something you are interested in head over to her website and let her know!

I am amazed, as I move forward with synchronis.tv how HARD it is to in effect say to the world WHO I AM IS ENOUGH… I am worth your investment, my vision is valid, and I deserve the things I dream of… I’m not complaining.. this has been an unbelievably rewarding journey which surprises me daily and is quickly becoming bigger and more magical that I’d even dreamed… but how fantastic it would be if everything was taken out of the equation but the TRUTH-

I was put on this earth to realize my dreams, and everything I need to make those dreams come true already resides within me, all I need to do is unearth my naturally given resources.

I think Sharon can help us do that……

 

What is the hardest thing I’ve had to overcome???? May 22, 2007

fear… fear… fear…. fear….

In this week’s episode I said it was my twenties in NYC – much of which I spent pacing the streets of manhattan, crying…feeling hopeless, lost, worthless and desperate … working so hard to make my dreams come true, only to confront failure after failure after failure (or so I perceived it)…

but in retrospect, were those feelings anything other than fear in another form?

Boiled down to its common denominator…

Fear that who I am isn’t enough?

(and I wondered why it seemed no one wanted to hire me????!!!)

Once again I have embarked upon an adventure that is exciting, revolutionary, creative, the quintessence of what I believe I was put on this earth to do…

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will I let my fear overcome me?????

 

If you had the unconditional support of everyone around you… April 30, 2007

what would yo be doing with your life?

Unconditional support…. does that mean financial, emotional, material? Its up to you…. but if you had it… what would you be doing with your life? We want to know…

click on the pic to watch on veoh, or on the icon in the sidebar to watch on itunes
or watch it autplay at www.ifnotnow.net

 

The most courageous thing I’ve ever done…. March 28, 2007

When Nick and I shoot I try very hard not to think about my answer to the question of the week (see previous entry) before he turns the camera on me… often I am completely surprised by what comes out of my mouth.. and generally that spontaneity results in really, really honest answers… but not always. When reviewing the footage, I can always tell if I am not telling the full truth by the the way I hold my mouth… if I am holding back in any you can almost touch the tension….
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so… if “producing my own show, because I finally decided that I was enough, and didn’t need anyone else to decide that for me”, wasn’t the most courageous thing I’ve ever done what is? (more…)

 

What’s my greatest fear March 20, 2007

Filed under: failure,fear,inspiration,life,podcasting,risk,success,video,vodcast,women — kveljones @ 10:14 am

Failure… not being all that I was meant to be… never having had the courage to defeat my inner demons and live the life I was destined for…..looking back and saying “what if?”.

Even writing this makes me feel queazy and dark…..
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Funny… cuz I have a lot of more obvious, more obviously terrifying, more everday fears.

As I kid I panicked myself to sleep every night…I’m not kidding… every night… thinking every plane that went over head was a nuclear bomb about to drop. Then I would have nightmares about being buried (more…)

 

Have I ever stolen anything… petty theft=rage? March 13, 2007

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My answer to this week’s Question of the week, (see previous entry)… yes.. when I was in college I stole a pair of bowling shoes… I did it cuz it made me feel cool and hip and like I belonged…. but mostly it made me feel like shit and that I had compromised my integrity, and those shoes remained at the back of my closet, reminding me of how low I could stoop in search of other people’s approval, for years to come.

I have to say that yes, this weeks episode is fun, and funny, and people’s answers were really surprising… but mostly I found it kind of sad….. (more…)

 

My Academy Award Speech March 5, 2007

Filed under: acting,actor,art,film,life,risk,self-empowerment,Uncategorized,video podcast — kveljones @ 4:54 am

To answer my own question (see previous post), uchhch… I cringe to say it… its such a damn cliche… and I know! there are so many awards with so much more import…

I dream of winning an Academy Award.

But where once any old Academy Award would do…. now my dream is far more specific, and far more meaningful to me. I want to win an Academy Award for the film I wrote… for the film that is both my passion and my purpose, my biggest challenge, and the reason my life has taken me down such a bumpy and ohh so painful sometimes journey….

My Academy Award speech…

There I stand on that huge stage, trembling with excitement, with joy….with utter relief… I take in the people, the lights the music… I search out my husband…there he is.. I mouth “I love you” (he is crying too, knowing him)… (more…)

 

Do I play life safe, or am I a risk taker? February 25, 2007

Filed under: film,life,podcasting,risk,self-empowerment,video podcast,videoblog — kveljones @ 7:14 pm

So.. my answer to this weeks’ question of the week, (see previous post) ahh.. I take huge risks… but not big enough.. yes my vodcast is exciting and I believe in it and I know it is paving the way to the rest of my life…. but I am an actor… i am an actor who has a phenomenal screenplay that is partially funded… key word partially… I am seemingly paralyzed by my inability to continue to move forward and raise the rest of the funds for my film.. a film which is by definition a huge risk….and yet the risk I KNOW I AM MEANT TO TAKE… and really… I have no doubts about the possibilities of this project… that it can have a huge impact, that it can alter lives, that it can make money for all of its investors and pave the way for the rest of my future and my creative ventures… but to go to people and actually come out and say.. Hi… I am Kathryn and I am worth your 10,000 or 50,000 or 100,000 investment… that is a risk it seems I dare not take… And what am I risking? I’ve got nothing to lose and the world to gain… I guess I am risking facing the fact that I have to do it all myself… no one is ever going to step in and make my dreams come true.. only me… a world without a fairy godmother….